Category: Things I’m Thinking

I need this space. I need this place that I’ve created to capture my thoughts. I need this time to think and to plan and to dream. I need these words. When I don’t use this space I feel lost and out of control. It can be difficult to remember that, though I suppose memory is also one of the… Read more →

No one is reading these words. My cries to the Universe. My thoughts. My hopes. My dreams. No one is reading these words, and it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter because I’m not writing them for you. On some level I’m vain and I want to be heard. I want to be noticed. I want to be remembered. I want… Read more →

Today is February 1st. It’s a new month. It’s a Monday. How often does that happen? I want this month to mean something. I want this day to mean something. I want to look back on February, 2021 and be able to point to actions that I’ve taken to make my life better. Change has to start with me. This… Read more →

It’s almost the end of the year 2020. It hasn’t been the most splendid of years. ‘Bad Boys For Life’ was the top grossing domestic movie of 2020. I don’t know what that means in the larger scope of things, but it definitely says something. I don’t think any of us saw that one coming. I haven’t posted in a… Read more →

It’s here. That feeling of panic. Adrenaline dump. Feeling overwhelmed. Feeling hopeless. Wanting to crawl up into a ball. Assume the fetal position. It’s all too much. I look ahead and all I see is tragedy and darkness. The sky is falling and I don’t know what to do. Breathe. Breathe again. Deeper this time. “Whatever happens to me, given… Read more →

It’s the end of the day and I want to call it quits. I’m burned out and I’m tired. How do I keep going? That was yesterday. Yesterday I didn’t keep going. Today I want to keep going. Today I need to keep going. If I’m ever going to move on to something new I must find a way. What… Read more →

No one is watching. Everyone is busy. Everyone is stressed. Everyone is living their own lives. Everyone has a thousand better choices. Why would they bother reading these words? Why would they bother watching my videos? Why would they bother listening to my music? How do you break through? Should that be a part of my mental equation, or is… Read more →

I sat down to write. I had an idea pop into my head about life being a marathon, not a sprint. I decided to Google ‘Life is a marathon, not a sprint.’ Down the rabbit hole I went. My initial idea got lost in that rabbit hole. Maybe it’s there somewhere. Waiting to be rediscovered. So much of what we… Read more →

Why do I write? I write because it helps me clear my head. I write because it helps me organize my thoughts. I write because it helps me think of things I never thunk before. I write because I want to find what is true and what is real. I write because I choose to. I write because I have… Read more →

How long can I sustain this? How long can I continue to write and put those thoughts out into the world? Will I run out of useful ideas? Should I ration out my words? Should I post once a day? Once a week? Only when I feel like it? Time will tell. Is there value in sitting down to write,… Read more →